Scared of the Unexpected.

I should be completely happy. I have a healthy family and life is going well. I have great friends, who I can trust and make me laugh. I'm going to Hawaii in less then 4 months. The only thing I really have to worry about is getting my wisdom teeth taken out in a few weeks. But why do I still feel sad? Why am I still scared of the unexpected? Why can't I be genuinely happy with the luck I have? Why won't this nagging feeling go away? This feeling saying that somethings going to go wrong, because something always does. It's a terrible way of thinking, I know. Life should be cherished and appreciated, I've mentioned it so often, yet I can't seem to follow my own advice. How do I get past this fear of future disappointments?

I just finished reading a series of books called "The Circle Trilogy". It was brilliant, I didn't like the ending though, I wish the writer had of spoken of everyone else's futures instead of only two of the characters - the ones I liked least. Oh well, it had a happy ending so it brightened my day (: I'm running out of money to buy books, which just sucks. Looks like I'll just have to use the library instead. I prefer buying my books, because then I am free to read them again, and have the satisfaction of knowing I own it. I'm such a sad person - I definitely need a life.

As I mentioned before, I get my wisdom teeth out later this month. Joy. I hate pain, and am not looking forward to it - I'm dreading it, and typically, I have to start school the next week.. with my more than likely bruised face and painful mouth to make it loads of fun. But at least it will be the last of my dental work, I'll be free from dental appointments for a while hopefully.. Free to enjoy the countdown to Hawaii (:

Anyway, thats about all I'm willing to share for the moment..

I'm going to start writing a story or something.

I feel inspired?

bye,

x